Why do i get this feeling that everyone else is happy and still carefree?

O levels scared the freak out of me. worst nightmares, endless flow or tears whenever i think abt it.... afraid, afraid, afraid. can i do it? with points less than 10 points? My tutor said he didnt study yet he gets 10 points for L1R5. Jealous. wish i can do it too. is it possible? oh my! just, scared. cant concentrate on playing le. I understand how Muipeng feels last year alr. Only have the mood to slack or work. No play.

Went out for lunch with Muipeng today. Talked abt poly at my hse. Then my tutor came, did maths and amaths. oh i finally understand! ok actually i understand de. but things got like.... messy later on..
Skool teacher: (teaching fast fast)
Me: (Oh... I understand le. nx?)
Rest of my class: Huh? Huh? Huh?
Skool teacher: (re teach slower and in simpler terms)
Rest of my class: oh....
Me: Huh? oh nvm, i'll try to catch up.
(For the rest of the day and week) : wth is tat?
(when finally my tutor come and teach) : Oh! so it was THIS easy!

what's wrong. with me.


Well... fallen sick today. at first i was still fine. then suddenly i sneezed continuously, which after the pandemonium for five mins of non stop sneezing, bcom got sore eye. first left eye. then right eye. I think im going to die or sth. For real. Not my usual complains of jumping of buildings. lolx.


Time for this.