Everything is just part of my imagination. nothing works.


I don't care anymore. Its just not worth it. You're already rolling eyes in your heart.
I can move on. Yes. I don't wanna put you first anymore. You're never worth it. I was wrong.

yst went hospital. and between the waits, i went to my granma hse. ^^

my 4 years old cousin was there. her two years old sis was alsleep. grandma was watching tv. then my cousin took one barney activity book wan me help her with it. :) hahas shes one of the few kids i love♥

but then, i actually kinda pity her.
first, both her parents are working. no one's teaching her anything exept for skool. but she doesn't really like her skool. so no difference.
second, i ask her, where's your colour pencils? she sae she dun have. oh. my. gosh. you dun have colour pencils?? didnt your papa mama buy for you?!
third, there was this connect the dots in the activity book. no one taught her much. guess what. she cant match 1 to 10. see le i also wanna cry. poor thing. wanna bing her back home and teach her until she smart smart sia.
fourth, shes quite lonely. grandma didnt really play with her. her two year old sister cant play with her yet. then when i had to go, she's quite sad. haiz. saddening.

went home at around 5. the doc tell me my results is that everything's normal. my parents eventually had wasted their money forr my checkup cos they suspect this suspect that. hai me lose blood also. -,- then i had a numb left hand for the entire week.

Its been months. Yet, I bet you had never missed me before, let alone thought about me. Meanwhile, I'm here with you on my mind 24/7.

还有很多天。Yeah. cant wait.

Thanks. so long since I've ate a proper bar of chocolate. its always been M&M minis for me. Oh, and i love milk; i drink it everyday when im a kid. idk y im still this small.

And i wake up so early just to go to this thing and it suck. mostly cos of the stupid dummies.
I hate dummies.

and idk what's gotten into me.
its just a stupid cert tat isn't even going to be part of my life plans, and it, in fact, and nothing to do with it at all.
not getting it is like, "uh huh?"
then why the fuck the tears rolled out?!
i wasn't sad. i wasnt feeling anything else. just, uh huh. then the tears flowed out.
just because that stupid dummy won't cooperate.
then my mind was thinking: "oo nope nope im not crying. its just the dust got into my eyes" yeah what crap my mind was giving me. cant say it out either. cos your voice isn't going to sound as normal when theres tear in your eyes. I don't see the link in it. i want to. and this just gradually links back to how much i wanna learn biology and my this stupid skool just doesn't allow me to. why? Normal academic can't take biology? what crap.

I love my juniors. they were waiting for me and im like, the last today? -,- esp Vivien. first to be allowed to go home but then in the end last to go home.

accompanied Regina, Geraldine and Nattawat/Methasit to eat their dinner. they're gonna make me lmao. :) took mrt and then took bus home.

Today was ok. tmr is gonna be bored. so i guess im gonna watch television in the morning, then eat lunch, study chi, and clean my gerbils cage b4 dinner. I'm gonna be landed in such a plight of a whole day at home cos share didnt want to go out; she wanna watch tv, and muipeng didnt want to study with me; she find studying alone better. oo great.

I want 13 nov to faster come. its been months since i plunge into the pool. (lol. how come that sentence reminds me of geog's plungepool?) 13 nov, probably nth is going to stop us except for our 大姨妈. :D

Stupid results. thats probably one of the lowest. oo yeah, it is, in fact, the lowest in class.

hope i'll not retain.

please please please idw retain.

Oh of course. that is so, totally, A
.

later cca. tmr cca. wtf cca. very sian~

Breathe Slow- Alesha Dixon
I'm running out of patients
'cos i can't believe what the hell
I'm hearing
And speaking of hell
It don't compare to this heat
That i am feeling

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh whoa whoa
Good for you bad for me
When i can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh whoa

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before i lose it get composure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

Not guuna lie
Or even try
You've got my wheel spinning
And i ain't the one to show
The gun
'cos that means you will be
Winning oh yeah

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh whoa whoa
Good for you bad for me
When i can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh whoa

Ooh oh ooh
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure'
Before i lose it get composure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

Somebody better hold me back
You're lucky i know how to act
(so lucky ain't gunna attack)
I'm being calm and cool
But believe me you
It's taking everything to just
Breathe breathe breathe ...

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before i lose it get composure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before i lose it get composure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure


Doraemon R0cks~

The truth:
:) I love my mama papa.
lolx.
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Hard work paid off! ^^

Two reasons to be happy today.

First, No more art!! for this, i am very very very very very extremely happy. :D
Second, Mrs Wong said that she thinks my SS scored quite well. :)) Hard work paid off! she sae can see i memorised everything. yay! that two weeks of SS did pay off! ^^ Looking on the bad side of life, maybe Mrs Wong rmb wrong person. or maybe her "score quite well" means pass, which is quite good compare to last few years which i nv pass b4. :) my "score quite well" is more than 30. hmm.. cant wait for the results.

yeah i cant wait for the results. its then that concludes whether i'll be living nx year. if i retain, i'll go and die le. i dun care. i dun wan do n level when i alr start to catch up with the o lvl standard le. :)


yeah! no more art. although my art looks hideous, i dun think abt it, its gonna be the last last last painting i'll ever do for the rest of my life, probably. :) happy! ^^

Or anything about art, anymore. :)


After this freaking EOY and Muipeng's o lvl, i am really really going to hang out more with penjimiruwen, we should be bonded more yeah? :D Miss the craziness. :)
♥~This picture dedicate to Penjimiruwen~♥

And aww... They actually take the extra effort to go down and save that doggie. So good souls still do exist. :) I thought they had all extinct. ;p

This is one lmao pic i found on tumblr. :D


So now.....


Mogu . Cheerios . Boo! ^^

And my sis bdae.

I'm doing art at home.
Which is like, saddening.
Then i went on tumblr,
I saw this really WOW Swimming Pool slide.


And i wanna have a go at it.
Although going down the slide will make one feel like she is commiting suicide.
Yesteday I saw this on tumblr,
These beams of sunlight hiding behind the flower.
The picture reminds me of peace.
dunno y.
must've been all the art.
These craziness of art will all end after this. jys. chiong ah!! :)

And then i went on youtube to look for some melodies of peace
cos i realise this world is getting crazier by day
and i need a rest from everything.

and these music always made me calm down.
sometimes, let me sleep.
but its peaceful.
not like art.
Art look like peace, but its not. Peace is its facade.
I'll very much want to stab art in the heart if it were a person.
I hate art alot alot.

Cheerios, Mogu, Boo, !

 For every subject. :)

Just a few more days b4 i will buy the hamsters. Jys!

Art on Monday. Art sucks.

Geog last fri/tmr, spent almost all the time on physical geog, then i only left 25 mins to do my human geog! lolx.

One three marks qn in physical geog, I rote almost a page. wasted sia. hehes. then the four mark qn for human geog, i rote two lines. human geog sucks. so bloody difficult. :D

gotta chiong art now, Mogu B00~
















I'll let my voice recharge for a few days before singing again. :)

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

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Recently, my dad pms with me. idk what he wants, or whatever it is. just pure bias against me with my sibs. dk whats wrong either. everything i did is like, a wrong deed to him. even a question, or a favour...
(Convo in chi)
Dad: pass me that remote control.
Me: (saw two remote controls on the table) Which one you want?
Dad: Damn it I'm getting angry with you, seriously. I hate your attitude, your eveything, and you better be assured that one day, i will get my revenge, on this, this bloody attitude you have towards me... blablabla...(gets up and got the remote control)
Me: (thinking) huh? what i do? ok nvm. whatever. (walks to room)

Please tell me whats wrong.
The teachers in the temple would probably said its just karma, sth i did to him in prev life or sth that causes this way. ok, i'll be the good person here, id just let everything go and concentrate on the thing i nidda do now. :)

Good Luck for EOY, ^^