no.. you don't get it. everything's not gonna be fine. everything suddenly turns so unbearable, from lessons to pet bites to the things i used to love.
i just wanna give up and forget, and close my eyes and never wake up again. its like, poof, my future's gone, and since its gone, i shoulnd be here and upset everyone in future, i should just sae bye now and save them the regret later on. yes.

and so therefore, im going to sleep my friday away.

passed up a veri pathetically embarassing art to the teacher. if they saw it, they probably gonna call me drop art immediately. its maybe somehow good, i can concentrate on my both maths and try to improve them both tgt, instead of one by one. its time to train my mind to think this way since my o lvl maths cant be taken this yr. its either tat way or just 'leave' everything and everyone forever. im going to try the last hope first b4 turning to the 'bye' plan. if last hope turns out succesful and i can concentrate on all my subjects in one go tgt, the 'bye' plan will go to the bin. im going to be more hardworking, if i could.

seriously no luck with technology. 2dae use skool computer changed several comps also, due to lagness, keyboard not working and cnt access anything. and as for art, i hate it, im not gonna tok abt it. no. nth happens during art. everyone's fine with me 2dae, its just tat i probably wake up like tat and will be like tat for the whole day. i do not enjoy yst, its veri sad.

sick. almost vomitted several times 2dae. no mood to eat too...

everythings' seriously not fine anymore. i wish you could step into my life and brightens it up.

sry once again muipeng, the photos cant be uploaded. maybe you can come over with a thumbdrive or sth and i'll transfer everything in for you. :)

i cant smile and laugh the way i used to anymore. and i dun wan to tok abt maths, my tears welled when i think abt it.

Itsumo Nando Demo.
Yondeiru mune no dokoka oku de
Itsumo kokoro odoru yume o mitai.
Kanashimi wa kazoe kirenai keredo
Sono mukou de kitto anata ni aeru.
Kurikaesu ayamachi no sonotabi hito wa
Tada aoi sora no aosa o shiru.
Hateshinaku michi wa tsuzuite mieru keredo
Kono ryoute wa hikari o idakeru.

Sayonara no toki mo shizukana mune
Zero ni naru karada ga mimi o sumaseru.
Ikiteiru fushigi shindeyuku fushigi
Hana mo kaze mo machi mo minna onaji.
La la la la la la...

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Itsumo nandodemo yume o egakou.
Kanashimi no kazu o itsukusuyori
Onaji kuchibiru de sotto utaou.
Tojiteyuku omoi de mo sono naka ni
Itsumo wasuretakunai sasayaki o kiku.
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Watashi no naka ni mitsukerareta kara.