the times where i feel completely suicidal, helpless, and i cant find any suitable word to describe whatever im feeling, and i lay in my bed, unable to fall alsleep, worried tat tings aren't gonna turn out right, and looking for someone hu understand, but seems like no one does...
and so kept tinking abt how to die in peace right away, like im sleeping on the bed, and the next moment my heartbeat stops and tats the end of this life. i dun like it here. my parents still treat me like a kid. i told them i wanna discuss sth wif them. and all we do is shout at one another. sick of it. maybe i should pay more attention in chem lessons and read up more, id be able to noe which chemicals can kill me peacefully.
i cant run out into the middle of the road to get bang down after all. its like sabotaging the driver hu knock me down cos he'll get fine.
i dun wan to sink either cos i dun wan lungs full of water when im in a grave. tats disgusting.
ok. well, tats what im thinking abt last night.

woke up at 10.40 2dae. no one's at home. parents out for dunno what, siblings out for fotang. so nobody wake me up. i like tat on days like this, where i free the whole day.

gonna chiong art later. siao de lo. photoshop aft photoshop. call me take photos of 'spirals' then i everytime go out will take cam along de, also cant find any spirals. ive alr kept an eye open, hello? and she tok like my parents let me go out everyday. -,-

oo now my siblings are back le. lolx.

sumarrise yst.
yst gt the super suibian mood.
go tuition, teacher ask me what Amaths chap i wan do, i kip on saeing suibian.
then aft a while, change to do Emaths.
b4 i can sae suibian, my teacher was like, dun sae suibian horr.
hahahas.
aft tuition, went to eat wif muipeng. was suppose to mit share to study tgt at fotang, but then she in the end sae she dun wan go.
muipeng ask me where i wan eat. i sae suibian she sae suibian.
lol.
in the end, we ate at the coffee shop near our tuition.
aft eating, its raining. we went window shoppin for a while then took 89 to fotang.
studied there. so guai. xp
aft tat went to muipeng hse.
lolx we play wif her nail polish. i paint until like siao. i repainted the first nail for three times lo. none of them looks nice.
then suddenly my mum called me. she told me to eat outside.
so me and muipeng went to my hse, i took money, and showed her the destruction my gerbils done to their hse.
then went to hougang point to eat dinner.
eat le actually i plan to drink bubble tea, then we saw this machine abt donating money to the needy kids and get some M&N.
then i gave up on the idea on bubble tea and we plan to donate tgt.
at first expect a few to drop out only.
we were damn surprise to see so mani chocos drop out.
then we kept saying its veri good. lolx.
went japan home buy mirror.
then went home le.
~end~ ^^
id fail my summary. ;D