i hate art.

nid prepare so mani tings to get gd marks.
i made up my mind. i be gd girl tis term and score gd gd for eoy.
try la. maybe can. i study everyday...
the most irritating boring and waste time de is art. ma fan tings.
gtg go prepare art le. no time. bye.

written this during Amaths lesson on monday:

looking through the class, its obvious tat im the only Amaths student not paying attention to the teacher. felt boring, didnt really understand the teacher's workings. basically, its because I didnt wear my specs & i do not want to bcos it feels wierd putting it back on now. I only wear it in cases i nid to copy things frm the board. ok. sian.

i look down at the tb. then i saw tis qn:
3 sin x cos x = sin x.
hey how to do. I rmb tat my tutor taught mii tat exact qn. shit. 4gten how to do. stupid. i only rmb how when he comes. he came, its like suddenly i gt back my memories on what he taught mii b4. stupid memory. fine. im going to force myself to think.

aww sian. cant concentrate. so mani things r going to go on. theres oral 2dae. & my picture dicussion sux. i hope i rmb not to use singlish during convo. fcuk. then nx wk gt EOY. & im still not mentally prepared.

maybe i'll go force everyting into my brain on wed. im going fo tang study. its peaceful there. cold too. suits me as a vampire. im bringing share and muipeng along. my best sisters. just hoping tat they wont go on and on abt guys and their gossips plus their stories. then kip distract me. things r always like tat when they r both tgt. they attack me wif sick love stories tat make ppl puke. like mixing my twilight wif those guys. hey. im not bella allrite? tat edward whom u called tat sicko person is not mine either. ok. im going to remind them tat its a fotang there. so be pure...

wait hey. y am i thinking abt things happening on wed? im suppose to concentrate on the qn and not let my mind wander. hmm.. maybe i'll change qn... nvm i'll look at the wksht the teacher issued. omg his teaching method do not seem the same as what my tutor taught. plus my tutor accidentally taught an extra chapter.then i kip mixing up the method wif other qn. bcos i liked tat chap. chap 6.11 prove of identities. the easy ones r fun. he only teach until there then he realise tat he taught extra. oo man. got to tell him on tue. now he comes thrice a wk. omg thats expensive. i'll try to get him to give me some lessons for free :p he gave me free b4. calls that bonus.

oo fcuk. y is Amaths so complicated? i prefer Emaths. but then, for the previous Emaths test tat i failed... basically, i was stuck at this stupid qn for half the test & do not dare to move on. & also, i had a hard time trying to recall how to sketch a graph. and hence, i missed out the last qn. the easiest qn in the paper. tat's stupid. i scared later EOY i also like tat. then die liao lo.

i'll now look at some qn i did yst & try to recall. ok i rmb the last qn i did. lucky. omg i sure nid to do more. all rite now what the hell is the teacher trying to teach? maybe i should try listen. hmm.. wow hell yeah. i'll copy down the hw he's teaching. qn 2, 5, 10, 21, 23, 24. gd. copy down this then i'll get my home tutor explain. how ever my teacher is teaching rite now, me, do not understand. maybe i'll try copy down the workings on the board. hmm.. omg its hell lot. see le i also want sleep. better not try.

maybe i plot what i want to do on wed. 3 subject ba. geo, Amaths, ss. ok now only 45 mins past for Amaths lesson. 1hr 15min more to go! jiayou.

tis actually took up a foolscap full. i can do it for ss essay le. ^^
stupid. i lost the god damn usb cable. anyone has samsung usb cable??..............

fear test i took frm facebook and i prefer doing it on blog.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear...

[] black people
[x] the dark (a bit)
[ ] staying single forever
[x] being a parent
[x] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders (depend on its breed)
[] flowers or other plants

total so far: 5

[x] being touched (by hu?)
[x] fire
[] deep water
[x] snakes (poison ones)
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats
[] snow

total so far: 10

[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[x] being robbed/mugged
[] falling
[] clowns
[x] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[] doctors (obviously not i love dr carlisle)
[] tornadoes (cool when i watch it.)

total so far: 13

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[x] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[x] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[x] growing up, old

total so far: 21

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[] blood

total = 24

woow im paranoid.

its going to be three years soon. any longer than 3 and a half yr, you r going to the the longest one... you are my one and only now.

monday oral. oh-my-gosh. i dun wan... i scared scared the pic discussion. lol.


dn on msn 'fight' wif muipeng just now...

me: (i 4gt what i put. but its sth abt cute muipeng.)
she: Nah, No way. JIA JI is cuter : D That why I love her. Sick-ohh, don't kill me ( :
me: I love muipeng.plus she is so a lot cuter than me. ^^ ( i hope her laogong dun see this) ;P
she: I hate guys and guys hate me So JIA JI cutie, Stop dreaming : D
me: my cute muipeng is simply lying abt guys. shes gt tons of them!! =]
she: Okay Jia Ji, If any on guy ask me for stead by this week. I swear a pig would fly pass my window : D
me: i will make sure more than ten pigs fly pass yor window.
she: No way, Stop counting pigs (: Oh Yah, Is this becoming a PM Conver yohh? : D
me: yalo duh... the cutie's fault. too cute. so construct a fight: Tan Cutie!! ^^
she: Jia Ji is a cutie herself and she say that others is Crazyyyeee yahh, But crazy rocks. : D
me: The cute always lie. because they thot tat nobody would noe. but, they r wrong. only the non-cutes noe. muipeng, you r a liar.
she: I aren't a liar, Seriously I have no secret admirers : D Except for Jia Ji, <33 SICK-OHH, Don't kill me.
me: look!! another lie!! major lie!! sigh.. Tan cutie, I noe best.
she: I know better, Way better than you do & I'm aren't lying. : D
me: if you know better, you are so smart! oo ya u ofcos u r.. expressssssssss leh.......
she: I aren't smart, You're I get three F{s}, I got a feeling I aren't gonna promote.
me: no you are going to. smart ppl help cute ppl. so be sure yor triple sci laogong is there to teach you!!
she: He aren't mine, He's yours. : D Jia Ji is Bella, And Sick-Ohh is Edward
me: muipeng's the cutee alice and her {Y} is the shuai shuai jasper!!

then i gtg alr.
lol.
hahas.
bye!

muipeng, you're just a vampire like me. we both love twilight. (ok maybe just a lil for you.) oo, and last long wif yor darling.

share share, you're just a girl like me. we both wanna die. (climb mount everest then jump!!) oo, and, single's the best! rite? ^^

huimin, yeah we must communicate more. now we both noe each other like strangers like tat leh... and jiayou hor. your o levels tis yr... and last long wif yor darling. ;D


random thing to type here: i love to plurk and twitter!

new moon!!!!!!!!!

im gonna love new moon. cant wait.

aft exams, its escape, vivo and other fun wif frens.

aft o levels, its new moon wif huimin! woohoo.

wtf. at first my nov is full packed. first 2 wks bicultural, then a few days later, a camp, then a few days later, another camp. then nov no more. freaking bicultural cancelled.

TWILIGHT ROCKS FOREVER!!!

oo ya, peter fach put tis in his twitter saying he had his pic taken by sneaky papz. ^^

he was filming eclipse then.omg. rmb tis scene. first pic seen of eclispe. but its not the movie ofcos. he's chatting. woow.

in the world of twilight....

I love twilight! Peter Fach does just great and perfect as Dr. Carlisle Cullen.

theres a lot of things tat i feel like screaming out loud.
i'll just 'scream' them out in tis blog.

cant i just die straightaway and whenever i like it?! I want a new life.

let me go. its either you or me.

and now this is just a hopeless case.

so what if i have you? i still wont get my dreams fulfilled.

u r always the one making me happi one moment then make me sad the nx cant u just make mii feel sth same all the way so tat i would noe whether or not to give you up?

felt tat tis whole wide world is unfair. a living hell.

time is sprinting. it do not want to wait tis yr. its running faster than a vampire. oo gosh what a slow vampire am i. omg. i wish i could provoke the volturi and just let them kill mii. tis life isnt worth living.

stupid stupid silly girl. itchy hands. if u nv touch it in the first place, tis wont even happen.

kill me. stab me. make me dead. and hold no funeral for me. just leave me there to rot and continue living yor life as if i had nv been alive.

im a stupid stupid vampire hu just kips 4getting how to do maths. i thot vampires should not b so stupid. wth. ok im just a mere human hu lives in own stupid imaginary world of vampires veri twilight-ky. its so much tat everyting goes down and became hard. argh. and i also had a stupid memory................ wait. y do i want to die? woops i 4gt..................... oo ya!! i failed my entire yr alr. no more hope for mii. no more thru train. nightmare come true, dreams come fake. poof. this is rotten.

im sorry i cant face you anymore. 对不起你也对不起自己。我很自愿死。几时才轮到我撞车死掉？

im doing tis bcos there is no one else to blame but mii. blame myself for being too addicted to you. blame myself for not studying hard. blame myself for trusting you too much. blame myself for forgetting, blame myself for living.
forget remember me not.

lousy.

omg. cousel me. im out of my mind alr.

and there was this voice in my head saying: forgive, darling. that kind of person isnt worth yor love or hate.


oo, and muipeng, im not toking abt u in tis entire post. pls dun anyhow suspect. ^^ frens4eva.

i make my own quote by my own life experience:

Huimin, gd luck for yor o levels.
alicia, gd luck for yor psle.
to all my frens, gd luck for yor eoy.

random photo sharing.

my favourite photo taken at vivo:


my bro's life cycle of butterfly


me and muipeng (we dun even look like ourselves. i look like a kid.)


i so guai, study geog. ok. its chap coast. im revising.







oo btw, mii and muipeng is planning to change blogskin tgt. we make blogskin and use it tgt. bcos, we tink copycats rock!! ^^ lol. dopydogs then...

was playing around wif picnik.com and i made these:

replying the tags here..

[R]EGINA: whoaas cpl, your sister is DANGEROUS D;
yeah lo. must kip all the knives frm her. hahas.

Cherie: Never ask your ***** save you when she tries to kill you. your mum not at home at that time meh?
share share, first of all, he wont care. he forgetten mii. and he duno where i live. and, i wont anyhow sukasuka call 'stranger' save me de. they will thot i siao. nx, yep, my mama not home.

I am the true Vampire. Vampire Tan also true vampire. just like mii.. rmb tat.

my major 5-1:

fives:
papa, mama, sis, bro, ahma. (those living wif mii)

fours:
twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn (twilight series)

threes:
carlisle cullen, peter facinelli, rami malek (celebrities)

twos:
chippy, bibi (pets)

ones:
my future (yeah.)



past memories... the random sec one life abt cheeky gal and hola, then the fun and exciting sabo gossip life within the heartland twins... hahas. out of my secondary skool life so far, i love sec two life best. sec three life is the boring-est wonder wat will happen nx yr..

gave her a friendly pat. duno why then she went mad. she took a knife and brandished it around, tried to stab mii wif it. woow ducked every swing. desperated, i grab the nearest weapon: cane. there was two. so one hand one cane. my turn to brandish my 'weapon' around. woohoo she's afraid of the cane although her knife can kill. i cornered her. she went even madder and then just chiong at mii wif the knife. i ran. it became a merry-go-round chase wif her. i shouted for her to stop. she's too mad to listen to mii, she probably thot tat id cane her if she puts the knife down. just then, my lil bro shouted: 放下来啦！很危险 leh！of cos, he shout tat to my sis, not mii. cane is nth dangerous. whew! she returns the knife to the kitchen and went to watch tv. shes lucky i didnt sue her. ;D

im falling and falling and falling. im going to reach out & try to catch whatever tat could lead mii back to the top again. im late by one step last yr. suddenly black out & fell, deep. so now must climb back up and fast!! only gt 3 wks and lesser to do so.

lets do physics and geog first. emaths and amaths will be the in-betweens.

wtf i hate you!! y even make me emotional in the 1st place? now tat everytings settled, i then realise tat im far behind and i gt problems trying to catch up wif the rest.


last saturday while waiting for muipeng to finish her art in tuition, i read a bio notes bk. woow i read and i love bio more and more. first of all, its complicated when i first read it. but then i still read. nid memorise a lot of names de.. i read especially on plants. hahas, then i finally get the ans for one of my personal faqs. then i realise a lot of qn of my personal faq is based on bio. then i didnt even get to learn it. stupid. this is how the seedling grows frm the seed:

the inside of the seed expands as it absorbs the water. then the exterior burst. (i nv rmb the name. dun hv enough time to do so.) the root growes down. then the white part of the root pushes itself up to form the soon to be stem. the the leaves grow. then the diagram stop there le. nv explain anymore... lol..

haha!! i dunno y but im really happi tat i finally get to read bio!! i love it, its easy to rmb, just like physical geog! i didnt regret wanting to learn bio. instead, i want to learn more and if i can, id take pure bio. ^^ wait. nid teacher first. suck. more money needed. so, means no le confirm. sigh...

anyway, just, bio rox. ^^

this post is for share share. ;D wan tell her tis 'long' ting, tat i cant sms her cos of her stupid confiscated handphone.

its based on 2dae at hougang point KFC the chat we had..

part 1:
first of all, i dun like him he dun like mii=] he do those tings cos he like to act cute. and besides, its a long time ago alr. i tink he also forgotten mine name alr. and also, he now walk past mii like stranger, like he nv done those tings b4(huh? tis sentence sounds a bit rong. nvm la u noe can le. ^^). hahas. i tink if we really past each other in the streets nowm the most i tink we'd do is a simple hello not some funny over friendly style. nvm, i alr took it as he'd forgotten mii alr. ppl hu nv tok to mii for more than 2 wks, i take it as they forgotten mii liao. ^^

part 2: share share u taken my 'recommended relationship' too seriously izzit? y u run away when u saw them? HAHA. too shy to mit him. :D lucky yor lao gong not the shy type lurh. if not u both really cant make it le. shy guys r like, u noe, gay.. :p shy gals r like, u noe, woow!! ;D

hahas! had fun wif share 2dae. everytime go KFC gt sth funny one lo. tat time go wif muipeng, she kana all the bad services, so funny... ;D

http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=18265475&key=CVFO

have fun. ^^

My instincts tell me that my vampire will change me once I had become sucessful in life and dun bear to die. Now my attitude of being ready to die anytime anywhere doesnt really fit my vampire's description of a proper vampire(dunno y). so yeah wait I graduate frm university, and start working and start earning money and dun regret living. woow I wan to save lives too. just like Carlisle. but he save human life, I save animal life. ;D i dun bite ppl now. ppl no nid b scared of mii now. but they nid to be scared of mii in the future. i wan to bcom non-vegetarian. hahas. kiddin..

woow cant wait!! im gonna have decades to become the perfect veterinarian!

enter sp- biotechnology. ^^

wth. ive gt lots of plan but nv really set action... -,-

oo btw, look at tis funny quote i found:
never married because there was no need. I have three pets at home which answer the same purpose as a husband. I have a dog which growls every morning, a parrot which swears all afternoon, and a cat that comes home late at night.

so im gonna get a dog, a parrot and a cat! ;D hahas. lol i dun really like cats now... i guess id switch that cat for a tortoise. like tat it will also come home late ma. slow walker... ;]

the cullen family. my ranking frm my fave to okok. ^^

Carlisle Cullen
Alice Cullen
Jasper Hale
Edward Cullen
Rosalie Hale
Bella Swan
Emmett Cullen

yepyep, Carlisle is the hottest!! ^^ not some silly robert pattison hu smokes, and rob dun even lok nice in real life. not Carlisle/Peter Facinelli. ^^ but i still agree tat Edward cullen look nice and is sweet in the movie, but he still cant compare to my Carlisle Cullen. ugh. sad ting is, Peter facinelli is 37 alr. hahas.

twilight rox!!

you noe what? this is cool:

u now what? its hard looking for a gd vampire blogskin. ><

some quotes to share..

Life is "trying things to see if they work."

The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.

The future is here, now, and the past is full of actual deeds, real history. Utopias hardly have the meat on their bones to sustain a people in grave times.

Mathematics as an expression of the human mind reflects the active will, the contemplative reason, and the desire for aesthetic perfection. Its basic elements are logic and intuition, analysis and construction, generality and individuality.

Is it so bad to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh.

The most successful people are those who are good at plan B.

You really can change the world if you care enough.

To succeed, we must first believe that we can.

Peace is not the absence of war; it is a virtue; a state of mind; a disposition for benevolence; confidence; and justice.

The least movement is of importance to all nature. The entire ocean is affected by a pebble.

You do not lead by hitting people over the head - that's assault, not leadership.

I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure: which is: Try to please everybody.

A leader must have the courage to act against an expert's advice.

The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.

The remarkable thing is that we really love our neighbor as ourselves: we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate ourselves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. We are prone to sacrifice others when we are ready to sacrifice ourselves.

Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back.

Read no history: nothing but biography, for that is life without theory.

If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change.

Life is just one damned thing after another.

Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

Life resembles a novel more often than novels resemble life.

Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.

Everything has been figured out, except how to live.

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you're going to live. Now.

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

Study as if you were going to live forever; live as if you were going to die tomorrow.

Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.

You can get everything in life you want if you will just help enough other people get what they want.

Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open.

Of course I believe in luck. How otherwise to explain the success of some people you detest?

Shallow men believe in luck. Strong men believe in cause and effect.

I'm a great believer in luck and I find the harder I work, the more I have of it.

We must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid of the power to forgive is devoid of the power to love. There is some good in the worst of us and some evil in the best of us. When we discover this, we are less prone to hate our enemies.

He did not arrive at this conclusion by the decent process of quiet, logical deduction, nor yet by the blinding flash of glorious intuition, but by the shoddy, untidy process halfway between the two by which one usually gets to know things.

Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.

Character is like a tree and reputation like a shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing.

tats all.... gonna sleep alr. gd nite!!

i just posted tat previous post some seconds ago, then share share sms mii tis:
i just bought hot mag. inside gt yor carlisle.

then im tinking: oo they finally put carlisle inside! then i sms back: I WANT!!!!

she is SO paikia.

early in the morning went to school 2dae for maths remedial..

aft tat went serangoon to check out whether there are any gerbils available. theres none. as im abt to go home, it began to rain... then i dun wan take out umbrella cos later the umbrella would be wet. so i took two buses home to get home, fully sheltered. ^^ and so another typical day at home....

oo btw, i found these...
ive got...

;D






























hahas. i'd look for more nx time yeah? ;D
maybe tat would be what you should be calling mad twilight fan. ^^