went sj hq 2dae for cca.. ><

early in the morning wake up, 6.40am then reach hougang interchange cos miting jia hao, amanda and fida to go there tgt.

ok i shall tok abt the test first since its the first activity. tat test paper a lot of problems lurh.. and seniors kip on moving in and out of the room, so the doors kip banging.. noisy lurh, especially wen i almost thot of an ans, then BANG!!! answer gt scared out of maii brain.

aft tat is the foot drill MOI. i thot abt maii speech yst nite. it went quite well. i planned to tok abt a lot of tings. instead on the real assessment, dunno y i just rushed through everything. i tink i only took less than 5 mins. no one told mii how much time i took..

the worst is the lecture MOI. at first i dun feel anxious or anything. then i thot tat was a gd sign. im suppose to b aft amanda. then wen she was listening to her comments given by the maam, i almost hyperventilated i dunno y. then i can even hear maii own heartbeat: omg. its going to b mii soon.. ohno can i chicken out?? >< then i started forgetting all maii lines and how maii slide look like and in the end gave a real lousy presentation. the audiences r tired. plus on im not used to use the laptop, and theres no mouse there. idk can bring the props, if not i can bring maii hamsters le lo.

its not fair. i prepared for it!! i had a lot of rehearsals done wif maii family and frens. perhaps im not so confident in front of so much ppl i dunno so well. at home, i do the presentation, i had plenty of stories ready to share, like the cat hu ate maii hamsters all these, but unfortunately, i cant seems to link the tings to the story. i look at the audience their glum face discouraged mii at once, so i just rushed through the rest of the powerpoint. if i do hv maii frens in front of mii (maii frens as in close frens) id probably b successful abt the powerpoint. then tis presentation i hv to do it ALONE. scary facing everyone. all look at mii like i alien like tat.

if i do hv the courage to b entu wif maii audience abt the presentation, i suppose everyone would b laughing. (idk. tats wat maii sis did) and then if im really scared, id held out maii hand to them and sae: wait. let mii hyperventilate finish first, then id start aft a min or two. i'll b sharing a lot of experiences in all these years tat i had hamsters, how i gt maii first hamster.. blabla. i should fail. little did i noe i had trouble speaking in front of ppl idk. how do i practise tat?! ppl i can find to present to r only maii close frens, family all tis. all rite nvm. kana sai. id fail myself if im the examiner.

hello?? like, a blog is an online diary, and parents arent suppose to peep or anything?? i dun like ppl watching mii posting. SEE ONLY AFT I FINISHED POSTING, madam!!