Disappointment

& so time & again, u 5 disappoint mii.

one, is minor issue, but has lots of the 'minor issue'
three, done tings tat ive nv been admiring.
two, one of them frm the three above, did tings tat hurt mii the most. i had to kipholding back maii tears in front of you both and y is tis so? one maii kin, one tat i'd love as a true sister. making mii disappointed the most times.

no where to settle down to sry. its so crowded everywhere. where i belong? I dunno where. dun feel sense of belong anywhere. home, skool, cca, & even wif maii ex sisterhood.

theres betrayal frm everyone, ignorance frm certain ppl, & concern frm only ppl i dun feel really close to, and these ppl r only few.

its funny,from how i gt the care frm those ppl, how do they cheer mii up, frm the stress of maii personal problems tat they dun even noe and they cheer mii up without even knowing it.

i dun hate,
i cant hate.
all i can do is feel disappointed.

wat ive been doing lately is so useless. using the comp, hiding in bedroom and going out. well? ive gt no choice. how esle can i relieve tis stress?

failed maii most recent geog test, 2/5.
failed maii most recent chem test, 13/30.
& so damn disappointed wif myself for doing so.
like my future just disappeared in a *poof*

4gten some of the maths stuff tat i should hv known by heart. tis really disappoint the lots of ppl hu had been building up their trust in mii. so trying to get them back. im sry to those ppl...

i wanna take the true train route. i dun care. i wan it.




(woow. thks, blog. i relieved so much just noting it down here.
ps: to my cousin (you now yourself ;D) im not emo tis time ok? =] just disappointed.